Saturday, October 11, 2014
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Because of you, I will Never have a summer
In the face of all that we have been
I am left as lonely as the passing of time
I will never have a life without a winter
I will never warm myself within the echoes of your heartbeat
Remember when I held up your head
Further disowning my life and my agenda
I made promises and never thought that I would be devoured
In the face of all that we have been
If I bleed, will you fade away?
If I scream, will you silence me?
If I decide that I will lie down with another
Will you hate me?
Will you trade me for the weather?
In the face of all that we have been
I am left as lonely as the passing of time
I will never have a life without a winter
I will never warm myself within the echoes of your heartbeat
~ A. Sinclaire.
2:37 p.m. 05/07/2014, Wednesday
I am left as lonely as the passing of time
I will never have a life without a winter
I will never warm myself within the echoes of your heartbeat
Remember when I held up your head
Further disowning my life and my agenda
I made promises and never thought that I would be devoured
In the face of all that we have been
If I bleed, will you fade away?
If I scream, will you silence me?
If I decide that I will lie down with another
Will you hate me?
Will you trade me for the weather?
In the face of all that we have been
I am left as lonely as the passing of time
I will never have a life without a winter
I will never warm myself within the echoes of your heartbeat
~ A. Sinclaire.
2:37 p.m. 05/07/2014, Wednesday
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
An Excerpt from "Breaking Autumn"
On this cold and vibrant day, what could be said of love? This farce of emotions. This liquid imbalance.
Have I not told you my story? Have I not bled out in vain? My essence strewn about this table?
Does it not ebb the very heart of love? As it drips down the walls like an embryo, begging for
distinction from the rest of the masses?
Yes, I say. Yes. And precisely what could be said? What indeed?
I came to her, asunder. In time, reduced to ashes. For what is a submissive if not a shadow of her Mistress?
Through the end I held my silence. Through it all I kept my tongue.
What violence betroth me! This daughter of the Sun.
~ A. Sinclaire.
9:53 p.m. 04/25/2014
Have I not told you my story? Have I not bled out in vain? My essence strewn about this table?
Does it not ebb the very heart of love? As it drips down the walls like an embryo, begging for
distinction from the rest of the masses?
Yes, I say. Yes. And precisely what could be said? What indeed?
I came to her, asunder. In time, reduced to ashes. For what is a submissive if not a shadow of her Mistress?
Through the end I held my silence. Through it all I kept my tongue.
What violence betroth me! This daughter of the Sun.
~ A. Sinclaire.
9:53 p.m. 04/25/2014
This Body and Breath
This blood is my own
My body and breath
This Light that I gave you
Returned as I wept
Like feathers, you loved me
And as feathers, you left
This body is my own
This blood in my breath
~ A. Sinclaire
8:45 p.m. 04/07/2014, Monday
My body and breath
This Light that I gave you
Returned as I wept
Like feathers, you loved me
And as feathers, you left
This body is my own
This blood in my breath
~ A. Sinclaire
8:45 p.m. 04/07/2014, Monday
Tears of an Empire
From dusk we evolve to dawn. From infants to elder. What we experience gains us the Light of our souls.
What we regret; our darkness. Expose a heart to age, to temper its handler. With what madness is the
mind, has all but generations. I bid adieu this kingdom. I bid anon, this world. Goodnight for now and
evermore. My spirit; haunt this shore.
~ A. Sinclaire
8:55 p.m. 04/22/2014
What we regret; our darkness. Expose a heart to age, to temper its handler. With what madness is the
mind, has all but generations. I bid adieu this kingdom. I bid anon, this world. Goodnight for now and
evermore. My spirit; haunt this shore.
~ A. Sinclaire
8:55 p.m. 04/22/2014
Stripped as a Child
Please ingest me
I have waited so long to be taken
And I wilt forever
I will not bare anything more
Behind my solace
This madness becomes whom I have been
This is my heaven as foretold
Don't save me form this
I am a whore and none other
You will never hold me to your life
Please your madness
Lose control
Let them take me
Leave me cold
I cannot blame you, for this crime
This is inside me
Mine, all mine
Please ingest me, one last time
I am fading
Mine, all mine
~ A. Sinclaire
8:59 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday
I have waited so long to be taken
And I wilt forever
I will not bare anything more
Behind my solace
This madness becomes whom I have been
This is my heaven as foretold
Don't save me form this
I am a whore and none other
You will never hold me to your life
Please your madness
Lose control
Let them take me
Leave me cold
I cannot blame you, for this crime
This is inside me
Mine, all mine
Please ingest me, one last time
I am fading
Mine, all mine
~ A. Sinclaire
8:59 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday
Sad Alice
A gentle breeze to heal this heart
And salt to heal these wounds
What writhes within, from a love forlorn
A daughter of the Sun
As shadows call, betrayed by lust
Forgiveness far from true
With autumn leaves decayed by frost
Now swallowed by the spring
These seasons spawn the colors of
What wills her heart from trust
The shore for her, a vivid dream
Of all that's never been
Forlorn by lust and lack of love
She'll never know true touch
Her eyes from emerald, forest-green
Her joyous laugh to dust
What doth remain now pales her face
With no one to embrace
A gentle breeze to heal her heart
And salt to heal her wounds
~ A. Sinclaire.
7:59 p.m. 04/12/2014, Saturday
And salt to heal these wounds
What writhes within, from a love forlorn
A daughter of the Sun
As shadows call, betrayed by lust
Forgiveness far from true
With autumn leaves decayed by frost
Now swallowed by the spring
These seasons spawn the colors of
What wills her heart from trust
The shore for her, a vivid dream
Of all that's never been
Forlorn by lust and lack of love
She'll never know true touch
Her eyes from emerald, forest-green
Her joyous laugh to dust
What doth remain now pales her face
With no one to embrace
A gentle breeze to heal her heart
And salt to heal her wounds
~ A. Sinclaire.
7:59 p.m. 04/12/2014, Saturday
Monday, April 28, 2014
For you my Love, for you
I cannot forgive this
Your pain in my skin
Drip calmly my passion
My hair in your hands
Replenish my darkness
Tear softly my skin
I bleed for my only
My water; my wind
If ever they find me
My body so thin
Hair brittle as brimstone
As I'm giving in
My body is straining
Arched sharp in this bed
To please you, to love you
As madness sets in
I never will leave you
My Mistress, my Friend
To please you, to love you
My Mistress, my Friend
~ A. Sinclaire.
9:07 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday
Your pain in my skin
Drip calmly my passion
My hair in your hands
Replenish my darkness
Tear softly my skin
I bleed for my only
My water; my wind
If ever they find me
My body so thin
Hair brittle as brimstone
As I'm giving in
My body is straining
Arched sharp in this bed
To please you, to love you
As madness sets in
I never will leave you
My Mistress, my Friend
To please you, to love you
My Mistress, my Friend
~ A. Sinclaire.
9:07 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday
Always
If I am dreaming of her, please don't ever wake me.
1,106 cracks of sunlight into my life.
And now I lie alone.
I am darkness and I am light.
I am hatred and I am love.
My morals should not be questioned.
As I was taught by elders.
If I am sleeping, leave me here.
And please don't ever wake me.
~ A. Sinclaire.
04.03.2014 @ 2:37 p.m.
1,106 cracks of sunlight into my life.
And now I lie alone.
I am darkness and I am light.
I am hatred and I am love.
My morals should not be questioned.
As I was taught by elders.
If I am sleeping, leave me here.
And please don't ever wake me.
~ A. Sinclaire.
04.03.2014 @ 2:37 p.m.
So Little Remains
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
Step into Darkness
April 28th, 2014
So Little Remains
If I could trade these emotions for apathy, I would. Love is an angelic toxin. A farce for lustful intentions. At the end of it all, I am left with the ever popular phrase "I am sorry." Why then, have my sentiments remained intact? Why do I not lean toward hate? Forgiveness does not exist in my heart, whatever mess may be left of it. But to move on in mind is also not a thing that I can do. I made a promise set in blood, and I have been reduced to madness. No longer knowing who I am. No longer believing in love. What more could I offer a world I hold in contempt? With my life asunder, I digress. I will not be with you much longer. You will all forget this plight. You will all write this off as a cry for attention. And I will fade before the task has been completed. Then remember me, all of you. I once stood for something. And after all this time; Always. A sort of unbreakable vow. Until the end, I will appear as strong as possible. When I am accomplished to a degree I set for myself, sleep will come.
And none of you may follow me.
For Her,
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
6:11 p.m. 04/28/2014, Monday
Step into Darkness
April 28th, 2014
So Little Remains
If I could trade these emotions for apathy, I would. Love is an angelic toxin. A farce for lustful intentions. At the end of it all, I am left with the ever popular phrase "I am sorry." Why then, have my sentiments remained intact? Why do I not lean toward hate? Forgiveness does not exist in my heart, whatever mess may be left of it. But to move on in mind is also not a thing that I can do. I made a promise set in blood, and I have been reduced to madness. No longer knowing who I am. No longer believing in love. What more could I offer a world I hold in contempt? With my life asunder, I digress. I will not be with you much longer. You will all forget this plight. You will all write this off as a cry for attention. And I will fade before the task has been completed. Then remember me, all of you. I once stood for something. And after all this time; Always. A sort of unbreakable vow. Until the end, I will appear as strong as possible. When I am accomplished to a degree I set for myself, sleep will come.
And none of you may follow me.
For Her,
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
6:11 p.m. 04/28/2014, Monday
Sunday, April 27, 2014
The Sounding of Hallow
Remember this relenting
As the sun soaks my back
Remember how it feels
How delicate it wills
How sweet the smell of sunlight
How sweet the feel of rain
Such plight before resurgence
So hallow in my skin
This dawn has come in vain
My only touch of truth
What ebbs away my heart
Was always set in vain
- Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire -
- 11:46 a.m. 04-18-2014, Friday
- For "Step into Darkness"
As the sun soaks my back
Remember how it feels
How delicate it wills
How sweet the smell of sunlight
How sweet the feel of rain
Such plight before resurgence
So hallow in my skin
This dawn has come in vain
My only touch of truth
What ebbs away my heart
Was always set in vain
- Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire -
- 11:46 a.m. 04-18-2014, Friday
- For "Step into Darkness"
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Alas (My Love)
Through porcelain tears I wait for you,
With blood and rust, I sleep forever
~2011 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
With blood and rust, I sleep forever
~2011 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Amethyst and Stone
Horizons of light
Draw nigh to my heart
An emotion
I will never escape
When my love, my dreams, my life
Come to fruition
I will not be the one
Who washes away
With one love, one dream, one life
Become the truth as dust aches within our bones
I will expend my soul to bleed for darkness
You may never know the purpose I’ve sewn
In silence I dwell
Away from the ones in pure endless love
With this love, this dream, this life I lead
Peer into the dark as I carry on
Realize this endless hope
I’m dangling here with every ounce of trust
that I’m eternal
Bare not that I will beg for triumph
My hands are cleaned by all infractions
I will not be the one
Who washes away
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Draw nigh to my heart
An emotion
I will never escape
When my love, my dreams, my life
Come to fruition
I will not be the one
Who washes away
With one love, one dream, one life
Become the truth as dust aches within our bones
I will expend my soul to bleed for darkness
You may never know the purpose I’ve sewn
In silence I dwell
Away from the ones in pure endless love
With this love, this dream, this life I lead
Peer into the dark as I carry on
Realize this endless hope
I’m dangling here with every ounce of trust
that I’m eternal
Bare not that I will beg for triumph
My hands are cleaned by all infractions
I will not be the one
Who washes away
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Aurora (a work in progress)
Pages bound in secrecy
An ocean of light
Redemption spent in lunacy
In desolate of night
Draw nigh dear-heart, and let it be
As manifest within these dreams
Relinquish all but beating heart
Let breathe the all and mighty sea
To live abroad, renowned in peace
-- -- --
A place for I and Thee
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
An ocean of light
Redemption spent in lunacy
In desolate of night
Draw nigh dear-heart, and let it be
As manifest within these dreams
Relinquish all but beating heart
Let breathe the all and mighty sea
To live abroad, renowned in peace
-- -- --
A place for I and Thee
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Embarking the Sea
Farewell to the Sea of Endless Age
Farewell to all I have known
And ever-true my life has been,
A crystal river sewn
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth/-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Farewell to all I have known
And ever-true my life has been,
A crystal river sewn
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth/-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Evolve
If you tell me it’s a dream,
I’ll fade away,
If You tell me it’s a game we play,
I’ll refuse, and kill the King
~2010 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
If You tell me it’s a game we play,
I’ll refuse, and kill the King
~2010 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
To Slip Away
These calming rains,
Besought by fire,
To tame desire’s heart of hearts;
By crest of Light,
Shone deep through Night;
In splendor we shall bare what wills;
To slip away by mist of dreams,
Among the shores of Kings and Queens;
By dawn we’ve sailed a world away,
Such heart-felt fire,
Calmed by rain
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
To tame desire’s heart of hearts;
By crest of Light,
Shone deep through Night;
In splendor we shall bare what wills;
To slip away by mist of dreams,
Among the shores of Kings and Queens;
By dawn we’ve sailed a world away,
Such heart-felt fire,
Calmed by rain
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
The Night I Loosely Close my Eyes
If I am to bleed
Please bend to your knees
for me
Allow me to see
The passion I am
letting leave
Don’t forfeit your
wings
Don’t snuff out your
light for me
This world is too dark
And all I ever do is
bleed
I love you more than
A sunset paints its
life for me
And yet it will bleed
It is a love intense
and dangerous
The stars have decayed
In darkness I have wept
for them
To feel this disease
To finalize quite what
it means
Come down to your knees
And whisper to my love
for you
This world that I leave
Will never see me as
you do
If I find my peace
Please take me from the
depths of this
In love with you
Where life will dwell
In love with you
The only place that’s
real to me
In love with you (In
love with me)
In love with you (In
love with me)
In love with you (In
love with you, In love with you, In love with you)
With you
~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
The Sun behind Her Eyes
I have burned out my soul
I have stripped off my skin
I have bathed in this glass
And I have lapsed
I tear at these veins
To claw at the rage
This dust I reclaim
I have never had wings
This hate I reclaim
Burns deep in my core
Through the godless, adore
The blood on your face
Smells dark of my pain
Our eyes dried and aged
It pains me to say
I tear at my veins
To claw out your rage
This dust that you gave
I tear at these veins
This hate you won’t claim
Bleed violent my heart
Burn deeply my soul
The love I could taste
Once blew me away
You have changed
I have chased
You have changed
I can taste
Your hate
~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
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