I cannot forgive this
Your pain in my skin
Drip calmly my passion
My hair in your hands
Replenish my darkness
Tear softly my skin
I bleed for my only
My water; my wind
If ever they find me
My body so thin
Hair brittle as brimstone
As I'm giving in
My body is straining
Arched sharp in this bed
To please you, to love you
As madness sets in
I never will leave you
My Mistress, my Friend
To please you, to love you
My Mistress, my Friend
~ A. Sinclaire.
9:07 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday
Monday, April 28, 2014
Always
If I am dreaming of her, please don't ever wake me.
1,106 cracks of sunlight into my life.
And now I lie alone.
I am darkness and I am light.
I am hatred and I am love.
My morals should not be questioned.
As I was taught by elders.
If I am sleeping, leave me here.
And please don't ever wake me.
~ A. Sinclaire.
04.03.2014 @ 2:37 p.m.
1,106 cracks of sunlight into my life.
And now I lie alone.
I am darkness and I am light.
I am hatred and I am love.
My morals should not be questioned.
As I was taught by elders.
If I am sleeping, leave me here.
And please don't ever wake me.
~ A. Sinclaire.
04.03.2014 @ 2:37 p.m.
So Little Remains
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
Step into Darkness
April 28th, 2014
So Little Remains
If I could trade these emotions for apathy, I would. Love is an angelic toxin. A farce for lustful intentions. At the end of it all, I am left with the ever popular phrase "I am sorry." Why then, have my sentiments remained intact? Why do I not lean toward hate? Forgiveness does not exist in my heart, whatever mess may be left of it. But to move on in mind is also not a thing that I can do. I made a promise set in blood, and I have been reduced to madness. No longer knowing who I am. No longer believing in love. What more could I offer a world I hold in contempt? With my life asunder, I digress. I will not be with you much longer. You will all forget this plight. You will all write this off as a cry for attention. And I will fade before the task has been completed. Then remember me, all of you. I once stood for something. And after all this time; Always. A sort of unbreakable vow. Until the end, I will appear as strong as possible. When I am accomplished to a degree I set for myself, sleep will come.
And none of you may follow me.
For Her,
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
6:11 p.m. 04/28/2014, Monday
Step into Darkness
April 28th, 2014
So Little Remains
If I could trade these emotions for apathy, I would. Love is an angelic toxin. A farce for lustful intentions. At the end of it all, I am left with the ever popular phrase "I am sorry." Why then, have my sentiments remained intact? Why do I not lean toward hate? Forgiveness does not exist in my heart, whatever mess may be left of it. But to move on in mind is also not a thing that I can do. I made a promise set in blood, and I have been reduced to madness. No longer knowing who I am. No longer believing in love. What more could I offer a world I hold in contempt? With my life asunder, I digress. I will not be with you much longer. You will all forget this plight. You will all write this off as a cry for attention. And I will fade before the task has been completed. Then remember me, all of you. I once stood for something. And after all this time; Always. A sort of unbreakable vow. Until the end, I will appear as strong as possible. When I am accomplished to a degree I set for myself, sleep will come.
And none of you may follow me.
For Her,
Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
6:11 p.m. 04/28/2014, Monday
Sunday, April 27, 2014
The Sounding of Hallow
Remember this relenting
As the sun soaks my back
Remember how it feels
How delicate it wills
How sweet the smell of sunlight
How sweet the feel of rain
Such plight before resurgence
So hallow in my skin
This dawn has come in vain
My only touch of truth
What ebbs away my heart
Was always set in vain
- Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire -
- 11:46 a.m. 04-18-2014, Friday
- For "Step into Darkness"
As the sun soaks my back
Remember how it feels
How delicate it wills
How sweet the smell of sunlight
How sweet the feel of rain
Such plight before resurgence
So hallow in my skin
This dawn has come in vain
My only touch of truth
What ebbs away my heart
Was always set in vain
- Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire -
- 11:46 a.m. 04-18-2014, Friday
- For "Step into Darkness"
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Alas (My Love)
Through porcelain tears I wait for you,
With blood and rust, I sleep forever
~2011 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
With blood and rust, I sleep forever
~2011 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Amethyst and Stone
Horizons of light
Draw nigh to my heart
An emotion
I will never escape
When my love, my dreams, my life
Come to fruition
I will not be the one
Who washes away
With one love, one dream, one life
Become the truth as dust aches within our bones
I will expend my soul to bleed for darkness
You may never know the purpose I’ve sewn
In silence I dwell
Away from the ones in pure endless love
With this love, this dream, this life I lead
Peer into the dark as I carry on
Realize this endless hope
I’m dangling here with every ounce of trust
that I’m eternal
Bare not that I will beg for triumph
My hands are cleaned by all infractions
I will not be the one
Who washes away
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Draw nigh to my heart
An emotion
I will never escape
When my love, my dreams, my life
Come to fruition
I will not be the one
Who washes away
With one love, one dream, one life
Become the truth as dust aches within our bones
I will expend my soul to bleed for darkness
You may never know the purpose I’ve sewn
In silence I dwell
Away from the ones in pure endless love
With this love, this dream, this life I lead
Peer into the dark as I carry on
Realize this endless hope
I’m dangling here with every ounce of trust
that I’m eternal
Bare not that I will beg for triumph
My hands are cleaned by all infractions
I will not be the one
Who washes away
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Aurora (a work in progress)
Pages bound in secrecy
An ocean of light
Redemption spent in lunacy
In desolate of night
Draw nigh dear-heart, and let it be
As manifest within these dreams
Relinquish all but beating heart
Let breathe the all and mighty sea
To live abroad, renowned in peace
-- -- --
A place for I and Thee
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
An ocean of light
Redemption spent in lunacy
In desolate of night
Draw nigh dear-heart, and let it be
As manifest within these dreams
Relinquish all but beating heart
Let breathe the all and mighty sea
To live abroad, renowned in peace
-- -- --
A place for I and Thee
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Embarking the Sea
Farewell to the Sea of Endless Age
Farewell to all I have known
And ever-true my life has been,
A crystal river sewn
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth/-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Farewell to all I have known
And ever-true my life has been,
A crystal river sewn
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth/-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
Evolve
If you tell me it’s a dream,
I’ll fade away,
If You tell me it’s a game we play,
I’ll refuse, and kill the King
~2010 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
If You tell me it’s a game we play,
I’ll refuse, and kill the King
~2010 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
To Slip Away
These calming rains,
Besought by fire,
To tame desire’s heart of hearts;
By crest of Light,
Shone deep through Night;
In splendor we shall bare what wills;
To slip away by mist of dreams,
Among the shores of Kings and Queens;
By dawn we’ve sailed a world away,
Such heart-felt fire,
Calmed by rain
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
To tame desire’s heart of hearts;
By crest of Light,
Shone deep through Night;
In splendor we shall bare what wills;
To slip away by mist of dreams,
Among the shores of Kings and Queens;
By dawn we’ve sailed a world away,
Such heart-felt fire,
Calmed by rain
~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
The Night I Loosely Close my Eyes
If I am to bleed
Please bend to your knees
for me
Allow me to see
The passion I am
letting leave
Don’t forfeit your
wings
Don’t snuff out your
light for me
This world is too dark
And all I ever do is
bleed
I love you more than
A sunset paints its
life for me
And yet it will bleed
It is a love intense
and dangerous
The stars have decayed
In darkness I have wept
for them
To feel this disease
To finalize quite what
it means
Come down to your knees
And whisper to my love
for you
This world that I leave
Will never see me as
you do
If I find my peace
Please take me from the
depths of this
In love with you
Where life will dwell
In love with you
The only place that’s
real to me
In love with you (In
love with me)
In love with you (In
love with me)
In love with you (In
love with you, In love with you, In love with you)
With you
~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
The Sun behind Her Eyes
I have burned out my soul
I have stripped off my skin
I have bathed in this glass
And I have lapsed
I tear at these veins
To claw at the rage
This dust I reclaim
I have never had wings
This hate I reclaim
Burns deep in my core
Through the godless, adore
The blood on your face
Smells dark of my pain
Our eyes dried and aged
It pains me to say
I tear at my veins
To claw out your rage
This dust that you gave
I tear at these veins
This hate you won’t claim
Bleed violent my heart
Burn deeply my soul
The love I could taste
Once blew me away
You have changed
I have chased
You have changed
I can taste
Your hate
~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~
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