For you my Love, for you

I cannot forgive this
Your pain in my skin

Drip calmly my passion
My hair in your hands
Replenish my darkness
Tear softly my skin

I bleed for my only
My water; my wind

If ever they find me
My body so thin

Hair brittle as brimstone
As I'm giving in

My body is straining
Arched sharp in this bed

To please you, to love you
As madness sets in

I never will leave you
My Mistress, my Friend
To please you, to love you
My Mistress, my Friend

~ A. Sinclaire.
9:07 a.m. 03/12/2014, Wednesday

Always

If I am dreaming of her, please don't ever wake me.
1,106 cracks of sunlight into my life.
And now I lie alone.

I am darkness and I am light.
I am hatred and I am love.
My morals should not be questioned.
As I was taught by elders.

If I am sleeping, leave me here.
And please don't ever wake me.

~ A. Sinclaire.
04.03.2014 @ 2:37 p.m.

So Little Remains

Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
Step into Darkness
April 28th, 2014

                                                               So Little Remains

     If I could trade these emotions for apathy, I would. Love is an angelic toxin. A farce for lustful intentions. At the end of it all, I am left with the ever popular phrase "I am sorry." Why then, have my sentiments remained intact? Why do I not lean toward hate? Forgiveness does not exist in my heart, whatever mess may be left of it. But to move on in mind is also not a thing that I can do. I made a promise set in blood, and I have been reduced to madness. No longer knowing who I am. No longer believing in love. What more could I offer a world I hold in contempt? With my life asunder, I digress. I will not be with you much longer. You will all forget this plight. You will all write this off as a cry for attention. And I will fade before the task has been completed. Then remember me, all of you. I once stood for something. And after all this time; Always. A sort of unbreakable vow. Until the end, I will appear as strong as possible. When I am accomplished to a degree I set for myself, sleep will come.
     And none of you may follow me.

  For Her,
     Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire
6:11 p.m. 04/28/2014, Monday

The Sounding of Hallow

Remember this relenting
As the sun soaks my back
Remember how it feels
How delicate it wills

How sweet the smell of sunlight
How sweet the feel of rain
Such plight before resurgence
So hallow in my skin

This dawn has come in vain
My only touch of truth
What ebbs away my heart
Was always set in vain

  -     Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire   -
  -     11:46 a.m. 04-18-2014, Friday
  -     For "Step into Darkness"

Alas (My Love)

Through porcelain tears I wait for you,
With blood and rust, I sleep forever

~2011 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

Amethyst and Stone

Horizons of light
Draw nigh to my heart
An emotion
I will never escape
 
When my love, my dreams, my life
Come to fruition
I will not be the one
Who washes away


With one love, one dream, one life
Become the truth as dust aches within our bones

I will expend my soul to bleed for darkness
You may never know the purpose I’ve sewn

In silence I dwell
Away from the ones in pure endless love

With this love, this dream, this life I lead
Peer into the dark as I carry on

Realize this endless hope
I’m dangling here with every ounce of trust
that I’m eternal

Bare not that I will beg for triumph
My hands are cleaned by all infractions

I will not be the one
Who washes away

~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

Aurora (a work in progress)

Pages bound in secrecy 
An ocean of light
Redemption spent in lunacy

In desolate of night
 
Draw nigh dear-heart, and let it be
As manifest within these dreams
Relinquish all but beating heart
Let breathe the all and mighty sea

To live abroad, renowned in peace
-- -- --
A place for I and Thee

~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

Embarking the Sea

Farewell to the Sea of Endless Age
Farewell to all I have known 

And ever-true my life has been, 
A crystal river sewn


~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth/-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

Evolve

If you tell me it’s a dream,

I’ll fade away,

If You tell me it’s a game we play,
I’ll refuse, and kill the King

~2010 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

To Slip Away

These calming rains, Besought by fire,
To tame desire’s heart of hearts;


By crest of Light,
Shone deep through Night;
In splendor we shall bare what wills;

To slip away by mist of dreams,
Among the shores of Kings and Queens;

By dawn we’ve sailed a world away,
Such heart-felt fire,
Calmed by rain

~2012 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

The Night I Loosely Close my Eyes

If I am to bleed

Please bend to your knees for me

Allow me to see

The passion I am letting leave

Don’t forfeit your wings

Don’t snuff out your light for me

This world is too dark

And all I ever do is bleed

I love you more than

A sunset paints its life for me

And yet it will bleed

It is a love intense and dangerous

The stars have decayed

In darkness I have wept for them

To feel this disease

To finalize quite what it means

Come down to your knees

And whisper to my love for you

This world that I leave

Will never see me as you do

If I find my peace

Please take me from the depths of this

In love with you

Where life will dwell

In love with you

The only place that’s real to me

In love with you (In love with me)

In love with you (In love with me)

In love with you (In love with you, In love with you, In love with you)

With you

~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~

The Sun behind Her Eyes

I have burned out my soul
I have stripped off my skin
I have bathed in this glass
And I have lapsed

I tear at these veins
To claw at the rage
This dust I reclaim

I have never had wings
This hate I reclaim
Burns deep in my core
Through the godless, adore

The blood on your face
Smells dark of my pain
Our eyes dried and aged
It pains me to say

I tear at my veins
To claw out your rage
This dust that you gave
I tear at these veins

This hate you won’t claim

Bleed violent my heart
Burn deeply my soul
The love I could taste
Once blew me away

You have changed
I have chased
You have changed
I can taste

Your hate

~2013 Autumn Amelia-Elizabeth-Raine Sinclaire and Ex_Cadaver Publishing~